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Hey everyone, welcome to the blog! My name is CYBER_DRIVER ☆ (aka CD), and I like to write about Black music along with gaming, anime, movies, TV, culture, and art. I realized making a blog would probably be the best thing for me to do because I wanted to create my own space and domain to share my thoughts. I hope you guys enjoy yourselves while reading my stuff! ☆*:.。.o(≧▽≦)o.。.:*☆

Monday, October 5, 2026

love, acceptance, & alter egos: a journal entry (8)

 
This song is somewhat related to the entry. I was looking for songs that I felt connected to this one, and I picked Kendrick Lamar. I hope you guys like this one lol. :)))

    I often think about the life I would’ve had if everything went well. What would’ve happened if I had present and active parents? Proper guidance? Someone or something to fall back on? What if the most impactful people in my life didn’t leave this Earth so early? A part of me wants to believe that in another universe, I did receive those things, but unfortunately motherfuckers can’t time travel. Losing so many things made resentment build up in me. Along with that, I gave up on myself so easily. I didn’t– and still don’t– trust my decisions, and until a certain point, I didn’t trust myself. I don’t know exactly when CYBER_DRIVER was born, but I do believe the persona had been building over time. I remember Toni Morrison saying this a while ago, but I started writing from a lonely place. I relied on music and art because I was in a lonely place. Before I knew it, I started having ideas I never had before, and I wanted everyone to know about them. I wanted to be seen; I wanted to be heard, and I didn’t even know the reason. I was becoming CD before I even knew who they were. 

    What throws me off the most is how different CD is from me. CYBER_DRIVER is loud, hyper, almost aggressive in a way. I didn’t realize how pent up I was until I started embracing those parts of myself. It started bleeding into my personal life, and my best friend told me I had more “fire” than I used to, and she’s known me for years. I feel like I took my pain, my struggles, my frustration, and I put them on CD. The things I didn’t like about myself, the things I didn’t want people to see, I put on CD; but at what point does it stop being an alter ego and start turning into a reflection? 

    Before I could process it, my pain turned into comfort, my struggles started easing up, and my frustration turned into love and pride. Right now, this is the least perfect I’ve ever been. I gave up on the dreams I thought I wanted, and I’m letting everybody down in terms of expectations…but I have never been more proud of myself in my life. For the first time, I’m prioritizing myself. I’m letting myself have new ideas; I’m letting myself be a little unhinged. I’m letting myself be annoying. I’m letting myself be loud as fuck, because I know deep down it’s healing a younger version of me. I’m healing the version of me that was quiet and never spoke up. It took a while, but I love the person I am now; I just hate how it took an alter ego to figure that out. Whatever, I’ll be alright anyway. 

- CD ★

Friday, October 2, 2026

Tekken 8 & Why It's Cool as Sh*t

 
This video is somewhat related to today's discussion. I wanted to put this here so I would remember to watch the whole video. LMAOOO - I hope you guys enjoy it! :)))
  • Word Count: 457

    Growing up, I used to LOVE fighting games; I still do. My first introduction to fighting games was the Injustice game on the PS3. I used to play Joker all the time and just whoop ass. Then, when Injustice 2 came out, I played it on my Xbox One. I started playing as Harley Quinn, and I was whooping ass then, too. You know what? Maybe I just like jesters and clowns…but I’ll unpack that another day. After beating those games as a kid, I moved on and started playing Mortal Kombat X (an older game) with my brother. Did I love the game? Not necessarily, but I liked it better than Injustice. I ended up maining Scorpion, and I just learned his combos; it was cool for a while. Then, as I got older, I tried to play Street Fighter. Street Fighter was fun; it was different…but still wasn’t a game that caught my attention like that. Then, fast-forward to earlier this week, right? I was walking around the library and looking at the games you could rent; one of them was Tekken 8. It caught my attention since I played the demo last year, but didn’t remember much. I got bored, rented it, and brought the game home to play…and the only thing I could think was, “Why the fuck did no one tell me about Tekken?” 

    Dude, Tekken is genuinely so fun. I don’t even know what makes me like the game. Okay, I do like the characters, the fighting styles, and I love that I can get away with mashing buttons, but that’s not the point! Also, I hope I make sense when I say this, but Tekken feels Black. Hold on, hear me out. You know how Black anime fans universally agreed that Piccolo from Dragon Ball Z is Black? I have similar feelings about the Tekken franchise. However, at the same time, I could be wrong. I’ve only played Tekken 8 as of right now, and I’m not even aware of the lore yet; I’m just saying it feels Black. 

    Additionally, unique shit just stands out to me. Compared to the fighting games I mentioned earlier, Tekken’s cast attracts me the most. I literally got to play as a fucking panda and a Black Ninja Terminator (Raven). Along with that, the fandom seems chill as shit, and I lowkey want to join it. I like connecting with people in the name of video games; it’s fun…and it gives you an excuse to do nerd activities. Anyway, the point of me writing this? I’m officially a Tekken fan, and I wanted everyone to know. LMAOOO
- P.S. I liked playing Raven the most. I hope I can actually own the game soon! 

- CD ★

Thursday, October 1, 2026

October Announcements: Album & Film of the Month, Content Ideas, & More

 
This video is for anyone who wants to learn more about Memphis rap and its history. It's an interesting watch, and I hope you guys enjoy yourselves! :)))

    Hey everyone, I hope you guys are doing good! Bro, I'm so excited for October- it's one of my favorite months of the year. I can't wait to start seeing and writing about scary stuff lol. Anyway, I just have a few announcements I wanted to get out of the way. 
  1. For album of the month, I wanted to show you guys Da Resurrection by Al Kapone. For this month, I wanted to go into the darker side of hip-hop, and I felt that picking this album would be a good introduction to the genre. A lot of Memphis rap has creepy elements in its music, along with storytelling. Not to mention, a lot of Memphis rappers put horror movie elements into their work- I figured this would be the best theme for October LOL. Anyway, all of that aside, I hope you guys enjoy yourselves. 
  2. Now for the short film of the month, I decided to go with NOT ANOTHER BLACK HORROR MOVIE by POPE. Not only is it the first horror movie on the blog, but it's also another comedy. It's super short, and it may take more than one watch to understand it, but it's still a good time. 
  3. I know I only uploaded twice last month...and one of those posts was the damn announcements. LMAOOO, my fault! I want to work on posting more this month. I think I needed the small break because I've been trying to force myself to write, and it hasn't been working in my favor. I have to give myself time, and I appreciate you guys for being patient with me. I'm going to make it up to y'all, trust! ;)))
  4. It's officially been a year since CD THE NET ★ launched. I've been a blogger for an entire year, my people!!! I have no clue what I want to do for the anniversary, but I'll definitely be writing something, so be on the lookout for that! 
    Being on here to write and make content is one of the best decisions I've ever made. I really love being on here, and I intend to make more stuff in the future, so thank you guys, for supporting me; I'll forever appreciate it. Anyway, emotions aside, that was all I had for the announcements! I hope you guys enjoy yourselves this month, and I'll talk to you later! 
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Monday, September 21, 2026

I ain't sh*t: a journal entry (7)

 
This is somewhat related to the post; it was the song that was playing when I wrote this. This is one of my favorite MIKE songs, so I hope y'all like it too. :)))

    Honestly, September has been nothing but a long-ass humbling session. A lot of stupid shit happened; I fucked up my car, my mental health was at its lowest point, I was barely here mentally, and to top it off, I got fucking sick. It feels like the universe is just telling me to shut the fuck up and sit down. Like, goddamn, I did not catch a break. It's just been weeks of beating myself up and trying to be perfect. The same shit that was holding me back; the same shit I critiqued myself for- I let it happen again. 

    I try my hardest...I think. Look, when I said I was my biggest enemy, I meant that shit. Growing up, I let so many things hold me back. Now, as an adult, I let everyone's opinion of my life tear me down...Sometimes, I let them stop me from making the decisions I want to make. I can write all I want, but the truth is I haven't changed. Sure, I can blame other people, but I'm the only one living with my decisions. No one else is going through my shit but me. A part of me wants to be angry, but what good would that do? I barely have anything going on; no job, no money, nigga, I'm barely here to begin with. Spending all this time trying to impress people so they don't criticize me- it's tiring, and I don't know why I can't see that. The best way I can describe people-pleasing is watching yourself turn into a broken record; you keep playing the same songs so people can dance, and they don't give a fuck, as long as you can play music. Actually, that might be a corny way to look at it. lmao 

- CD ★

Saturday, September 5, 2026

September Announcements: Album & Film of the Month, Content Updates, & More

 
Dude, I ended up finding this video by accident. This is for anyone who wants to learn more about MIKE and his influences. I hope you guys enjoy! :)))

    Hey everyone! I hope you guys are doing okay. I just wanted to go ahead and share some quick announcements for the month again. 
  1. For album of the month, I wanted to go ahead and pick Beware of the Monkey by MIKE (2022). Now, I know it's actually a mixtape, but I still enjoyed the project and wanted to show it to all of you. His music felt fresh, and I felt myself connecting to his art quick as shit. I hope you guys like the project as much as I did. 
  2. For our film of the month, I wanted to show In My Garden by Zahri Josita Jackson (2023). Not only is the movie pretty as hell, but I thought some of the themes were similar to MIKE's project. I'm happy about what I found, if we're being fully honest. 
  3. In terms of content, I don't know if I'll be posting a lot this month. I want to take the time to work on other projects, but I promise to be on top of shit soon! Life's been kicking my ass a little bit. LMAO
    Anyway, that was all! Sorry, it wasn't a lot of announcements this month. I hope you guys enjoy yourselves this month, and I will talk to you guys later! (@^◡^)

Sunday, August 30, 2026

Artificial Intelligence & Ownership: How Laziness Poisons Creativity

This video is related to today's discussion, and this is also for anyone who needs context on what we're discussing today lol. I hope you guys like it! :)))
  • Word Count: 934
    I was casually scrolling on my phone when I found an article about Dr. Dre welcoming AI, which isn’t surprising. Most of these artists/producers who were popular in the 80s and 90s have been open to generative AI in art. However, what Dr. Dre said irritated me a bit. Saying that us not liking AI in music reminds him of the people who didn’t like the drum and synthesizer machines? Saying that the only people who see AI as a threat are the people who have trouble creating? It was a wild-ass take, and I wanted to discuss that, along with some other things. The reason why all of these rich people are pushing and embracing AI is because no effort is needed. So, to see all of these artists, especially rappers, spew all of this bulllshit does more harm than good, especially because people look up to these artists. 

    You ever noticed that the motherfuckers who can’t stay relevant are the main ones advocating for AI? Too much? My bad, but I mean it though! The artists who haven’t dropped in years, haven’t done anything but show up to events and pop up on random-ass commercials are the main ones saying bullshit. Instead of trying new things, giving love to new talent, or giving resources to help real artists grow, they put time into these machines. They give an AI girl a fucking record deal and press that they know a real person deserves. Rich people, who never have to worry about working ever again, are still worried about the money in their pockets. 

    While we’re on the topic, I think the reason why people like Dr. Dre are attracted to generative AI is because of the lack of care. You make a funky-ass record deal? Try to fuck over an artist? Or better yet, you don’t want to worry about paying someone or giving them resources? Then of course, generative AI sounds like the best option. You can easily take advantage of someone who won’t disagree with you…or bother to ask questions. It attracts more than just artists; multiple entertainment industries want to welcome artificial intelligence into their work. It stems from control. Always. I believe after you reach a certain level of wealth, you eventually stop caring about the people around you. You focus more on the money in your pocket, rather than what made you rich in the first place. When it comes to artists like Dr. Dre, Timbaland, and Snoop Dogg, the main reason people liked their work was because of how original it was. Them experimenting and being creative influenced so many people and made them want to do the same. So, advocating for people to essentially take the easy way out is a harmful message. 

    Not to mention, a lot of people lie about what generative AI is. Generative AI does not make anything original, nor is it capable of doing so. Every single thing that AI has generated came from something or someone already. Humans are responsible for the shit AI generates. So, if you take humans out of the equation, then AI would not be able to generate anything sensible. That’s because the relationship between generative AI and humans is purely codependent…but that’s for another day. My point is, telling people “AI is the future” is bullshit. It’s like saying “plagiarism is the future,” or maybe “being unoriginal is the future, and we just need to get with the times.” Fuck no, and the thing I find funny is that the millisecond generative AI became popular, the first purpose (most) people gave it was replacement. The people who advocate for AI always say it’s a tool, but never use it like one. Instead of using it to give you ideas or help you find resources, you would rather have it write the song for you or make the beat for you…knowing damn well there are songwriters and producers out here. Hell, some artists are doing both, and a lot of them don’t have the same resources. Argue with the fucking wall, but you don’t need generative AI to make anything, especially art.

    Not only does AI "art" look and sound like shit, but it’s disrespectful to real artists, and it’s inauthentic. You can’t call yourself a songwriter and you have a robot giving you lyrics. You can’t call yourself a producer, and you have AI generating a beat. What makes art so valuable is the soul and work put into it. People going out of their way to make something that can be consumed- it’s beautiful, and at the end of the day, a machine can never replace that. These rich assholes only care about making their pockets bigger. They will never put their money into real artists because they do not care; they want someone to do the work for them while taking full ownership and credit. The only thing I can say is don’t let it discourage you. Just because higher-ups advocate for AI does not mean the people want it too. It’s been so clear in recent years that rich and non-rich people want different things. Everywhere I go, and every app I’m on, people express that they don’t like generative AI. People want human art. The old-school musicians may not give resources to new talent, but the people can; we have to support each other because all we have is each other. Fuck AI, keep working hard on your art, and know that you have support over here. Always. 
- P.S. Dr. Dre gets on my goddamn nerves. Fuck him! 

- CD ★
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I wanted to show another video of someone doing a deep dive on AI-generated music. It's also just an entertaining video that gives people insight into today's discussion. Anyways, enjoy yourselves and thanks for reading! (@^◡^)

Saturday, August 22, 2026

To be a butterfly: a journal entry (6)

 
This is somewhat related to the post. I was listening to this when I was writing. This song is fucking beautiful to me lmao. I hope you guys like it! :)))

    I remember a while ago, Erykah Badu said something along the lines of “in order for you to grow, a part of you has to die,” you know, so you can move forward in life. When I was 18 and first heard that, it stuck with me for a bit, but I didn’t think much of it. At the time, I didn’t think it applied to me…but being older now, I realize that statement applies to everyone, including myself. I hope I don’t sound weird when I say this, but I look at people the same way I look at butterflies; we have so many phases in life, and none of us actually start life as a butterfly. 

    Growing into who you are and what you want to be, it takes work; it takes you going through multiple stages. There’s a weird level of grief that’s tied into growth as well. Wanting more from yourself (sometimes) means letting parts of yourself go and change. In a weird-ass way, you have to mourn yourself. You have to mourn the parts of you that won’t be able to see your butterfly stage…but most times, it’s good to let go anyway. 
- P.S. I went to a restaurant yesterday and got a fortune cookie that said: “Modify your thinking to adapt to new situations.” I felt it applied to me, so that was the inspiration for today. LMAO 

- CD ★

Friday, August 21, 2026

How Hip-Hop Influenced the Sh*t Out of Me

 
This is kinda related to today's post lol. I also just like this song and wanted to show it here. I hope you guys enjoy! :)))
  • Word Count: 618

    I know I talk about my senior year of high school a lot – and I know I should probably stop – but it’s really where a lot of this shit started. A lot of the shit I’m into now stems from me experimenting in high school. Back then, I had a little more leeway; I went to places I shouldn’t have gone, and I found out things I had no business finding out, but that doesn’t mean I regret it. I love hip-hop. 

    When I found out about N.W.A at 17, I did a full deep-dive on hip-hop itself; the origins of it, the main pioneers, hell, there are things about hip-hop that I haven't discovered yet. The main thing that attracted me to it was how bold it was; the music was bold, and so was the culture surrounding it. The people in hip-hop- you can tell they have so much fun with what they do. If anybody’s willing to experiment, be bold, and fuck around finding out, it would be a rapper. Hip-hop isn’t allowed to be “normal” or bland, and that’s what I like about it (and that’s not to shit on other genres, so don’t start). 

    So anyway, you could imagine how 17-year-old me felt when I was introduced to everything. Bro, I was all over it; the graffiti culture, the fashion, I found my way into skate culture and fell in love with that too, grind fiction, the whole nine yards. Before I knew it, the shit was influencing the media I consumed, nearly dictating my life, and I happily let it. Hip-hop is a form of escapism for me. You know, in Kendrick Lamar’s album, Section.80, where he was saying he was hypnotized by hip-hop? That’s how I feel about it too. 

    Similar to metal and rock, there are so many subgenres in rap music. That’s why I don’t take people seriously when people say they won’t listen to it. Motherfuckers listen to one song they don’t like and start generalizing the whole genre. I will say, while we’re on the topic, there’s a lot of anti-blackness directed at hip-hop too. It’s one of the only genres that still has a majority of Black artists. For years, Black people have deeply influenced – if not directly created – the majority of music genres, and every time, we have been pushed out and ostracized. It’s like making a club, inviting a shitload of people, and then they kick you out. It’s bullshit, ain’t it? With that being said, I feel this weird sense of protection for hip-hop. So many people are so quick to disrespect the genre, and at the same time, want to copy it. It’s like they don’t want Black people to have anything, and it irritates me. 

    Irritation and disrespect aside, though, the last thing that makes me love hip-hop is the pride. When it comes to hip-hop, no one is ashamed of their roots or who they are. If anything, rappers and MCs let their roots influence their artistry. I know I’ve said this before, but seeing people be proud and love themselves- it makes me want to do it also. Rap music, along with the culture tied to it, has to be one of the most lively things I’ve ever seen in my life. I’ve never seen something that I wanted to be a part of so badly; it was something I involved myself in with no hesitation, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Hip-hop taught me love, pride, and a level of confidence I know for a fact I wouldn’t have gotten anywhere else. Needless to say, it influenced the shit out of me. LMAOOO 

- CD ★

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I also wanted to play the song I was referring to when I talked about Kendrick Lamar. I also just like this song too lol. Thanks for listening! :D

Sunday, August 9, 2026

NOLA: A Reflection by CD

 
This isn't related to this post, honestly. It's just the video I thought of when I was editing the article. I hope you guys like it anyway lol. :)))
  • Word Count: 459
    I went on a vacation a week ago and took a train to New Orleans. Overall? It was nice! Hot as hell? About to melt? Yes, but nice either way. A while ago, I talked about wanting more out of my life; I said I didn’t like how it was going, and all that kind of stuff. I felt like something was missing…and I think I found it in New Orleans. 

    Now, realistically, could I live in New Orleans? Fuck no. The heat was something I couldn’t even describe; too many men got weird with us since we were tourists, and everybody looks at you like they want to run you over when you’re crossing the street. Well…that last one can apply to all of the states, but that’s not the point! The things I didn’t like about New Orleans, the city made up for it ten times over. There was so much art and pretty things to look at in Louisiana. Everywhere you go has a fucking mural, graffiti, or some other form of art. I even went to an art exhibit for the first time with my brother. The shit was awesome; I loved it. I saw an underground band play some jazz shit too. 
- I honestly wish I could show you guys, but I wouldn’t even be able to credit the band. By the time I got there, they had already introduced themselves. :’)
    The reason why I found what I was missing had a lot to do with the environment; I needed a change in scenery. Not to mention New Orleans is just so lively and cultural. Everyone was having fun, everyone was outside, and everyone was Black. I don’t give a fuck what anyone says; it’s nice to be around people who look like you. Don’t get me wrong, I’m in the South too, and I love it down here…but the people down here? Where I’m at? Let’s just say they’re good at making people feel uncomfortable. So, to be in a spot where people didn’t do that so much? I’m more thankful than I want to admit. 

I think taking that train to Louisiana made me realize my life itself wasn’t the problem; I’m just bored as shit. I know my hometown like the back of my fucking hand. Every crevice, nook, and cranny- I got that shit down. I think I’ve gotten to the point where I’m just bored with where I am. I’m not even talking about mentally this time. You know what? Maybe I can get on that train again. I can just say “fuck it,” and see how far it takes me. I can’t do it, though; I still got some shit to figure out. I’ll get there one day.

- CD ★

Monday, August 3, 2026

August Announcements: Album & Film of the Month, Content Updates, & More

 
This video is somewhat related to today's post. This is for anyone who wants to learn more about Outkast. I hope you guys enjoy it! :)))

Hey everyone! My bad for being less active online; I got a lot going on, if we're being honest. However, the grind does not stop, my people LMAOOOO. I still love my blog, and I still got things to do. Anyway, I have a few announcements for the month. I'll be quick! 
  1. For album of the month? You KNOW we had to go with Stankonia by Outkast (2000). I really liked the album and took the time to showcase it on the blog. I really hope you all enjoy it. Also, you can check out my album review if you want. 
  2. Now for film of the month, I decided to go with Politickin' by Palmer Williams, and I loved how the film was shot. Even though the themes aren't as similar, I still wanted to show it off on the blog. I'm actually mad I didn't find his work sooner lol. 
  3. Honestly, you guys have small pieces coming from me soon. They're going to be more personal pieces. I feel I've been doing good on the blog, talking about nerdy shit and everything, but sometimes I want to switch it up. So, I'm going to be doing that. 
  4. Now...I would talk about my plans for YouTube, but I'm very sure I said some shit last month, and I wasn't able to go through with it. So, you know what? I'm just going to surprise everyone and upload when I want to. LMAO
    Alright, that was it; there wasn't much for this month, I'm sorry! I do hope you guys enjoy yourselves this month, and I'll talk to you guys later! ^o^

Thursday, July 23, 2026

Stankonia by Outkast: Album Review

Stankonia by Outkast (2000)
Rating: 8.5/10

    I know a while ago, I told you guys I wanted to give other genres some love, but lately, I’ve been having a hip-hop itch. I wanted to go back to the blog’s roots and listen to an album that’s been on my mind for a while: Stankonia (2000). Now, I have a small connection to this album, more specifically one song, So Fresh, So Clean. Dude, I love that fucking song. Every time it plays on the radio, my mom blasts the song, and we sing it together. She’s been doing that since I was a little kid; she would rap the parts, and I would sing. Anyway, I’m drifting from the point; my bad. I finally decided to listen to the project, and I wanted to talk about it today. 

    I’m probably going to use this word with all of my album reviews, but this album was extremely experimental. This was my first time listening to an Outkast project, but I fully understand what attracted people to their music. Their shit was so weird, funky, and cool. Every beat on this album was weird as shit in the best way possible. I don’t know, the best way I can say it? You can tell they were just fucking around and finding out. Nothing about this project is “normal,” and that’s exactly why I like this album. I also liked the small breaks in between. It felt like I was listening to a TV show. Like those old commercials you used to see as a kid? I thought it was cool as shit. It also reminds me of those classroom scenes in Lauryn Hill’s album. Anyway, I love when artists own being weird, especially in the early 2000s and 90s; it just makes me admire them more. 

    I also want to comment on the album cover itself. The shit is fire. It’s something about it that just makes me like the album more. Additionally, hearing self-expression being done in their style of rapping is something I’ve never heard before. It’s weird, it’s loud, it’s catchy, their voices blended so well, and you could tell the artists were just having fun. I would’ve loved to see André 3000 and Big Boi perform or something. I would’ve loved to see a Tiny Desk or SOMETHING, shit; it’s alright though. Regardless, this was a good album, and I can’t wait to listen to their other stuff sometime! 

- CD ★
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You know I couldn't leave you guys hanging! LMAOO 

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

I think my biggest enemy is me: a journal entry (5)

 
This song is somewhat related to today's post. It's the song I thought about when writing this. No clue why, but I hope you guys like it! :))

     When I made my video titled “I’m a loser and that’s okay,” I didn’t think much of it at the time. I just wanted to make a video and talk shit, putting my thoughts out there. I said something about wanting to get things done and wanting more out of life…and to be honest, I haven’t done shit since I made that video. I haven’t accomplished anything, nor have I actually tried. For a long time, I blamed everything under the sun. I blamed my family, my old friends; I blamed people who were no longer here or in my life, and not once did I blame myself.

    Now, don’t get me wrong, I went through some bullshit. I’ve had things happen to me, and I know I didn’t deserve them. My point is, people have contributed to the bad in my life, but I’m the one who’s not moving. I’m the one who’s not getting my shit together, and after a while, you can’t blame anybody anymore. My biggest enemy is me. There are so many things I want to do in my life; there are so many people I want to talk to and be close with, but it’s not happening…and that’s on me. The part that makes me feel like a dumbass is knowing that I’m capable, and just not moving. I know that I can do shit, but I won’t do shit. It’s like seeing everyone around you walking, and you’re just standing still for some dumbass reason. 

    When I have thoughts like this, I try not to compare. I genuinely have the coolest friends ever. All of them are doing well and will continue to do so, but at the same time, I’m not them. I have my flaws just like they have theirs. I want to change, but unfortunately, wanting doesn’t mean shit; I actually have to start doing shit. LMAO
- P.S. Depression is a bitch. Fuck them! 

- CD ★

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Resident Evil was definitely...something!

This video is absolutely related to today's post! This is just for the people who want to see the gameplay with no commentary. I hope you guys enjoy it! :)))
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    Okay, as I’m writing this, I literally JUST beat the first Resident Evil game like…an hour ago. Plus, I’m watching a JazzyGuns gameplay to refresh my memory. I wanted to talk about my thoughts for a bit. Overall, it’s a really good game. I think it’s one of the best introductions to a franchise I’ve ever seen, and I loved the story. Additionally, I liked how different the game’s mechanics were. The fixed camera angles made the game even scarier, adding to the atmosphere of an already creepy-ass game. Honestly, it was cool and gave a nice experience…but you couldn’t pay me to play this shit again! 

I mean this in the most respectful way possible; this is not one of those games I’d play more than once. Now, before you guys say anything, it wasn’t the controls that made me say that, and no, it wasn’t the lack of inventory space I had in my pockets. All of that shit I got used to pretty quickly. What threw me off was the lack of guidance. Mannnnnn, when I tell you this game doesn’t tell you shit, this game does not tell you shit. We’re talking no objections; none of the rooms are labeled on the maps, and you’re barely given any hints throughout the game. You’re essentially playing the game blind, which, technically, is the point. In a way, you’re experiencing how your character feels in real time: being thrown into a super huge mansion, feeling like there’s no way out, almost hopeless, sure…but at the same time, that can make the game unenjoyable. Eventually, you start getting lost, and some puzzles are so difficult that you have to research them (depending on who you are). Don’t get me wrong, that doesn’t make Resident Evil bad, just slightly annoying. 
- I also want to note that if you play the game long enough, you eventually get used to the navigation in the Spencer Mansion. I still meant what I said, though! 

Not to mention the people who are new to Resident Evil! When you add older controls to a game with fixed camera angles, and the player doesn’t know what they’re doing, it can be overwhelming to say the least. I also want to say, as a Resident Evil fan, I don’t like the way people try to gatekeep the franchise. Seriously, there are way too many people who say shit like…
  • “If you didn’t play the first Resident Evil, you’re not a real fan.” 
  • “You can’t be a Resident Evil fan if you don’t play the games!”
First of all, this is why I said don’t interact with the fandom in my last Resident Evil piece. Second, you can 100 percent be a fan of a game and never play it. As a matter of fact, I’ll use myself as an example; I’m a super huge fan of Five Nights at Freddy’s. I’ve been a fan since the first game came out; I’ve done multiple deep dives on the games, I've listened to most of the songs people made for the franchise, and I’ve been watching gameplays since I was a little kid. Now, guess who’s never played any of the games. Me! I don’t intend to play any of them either. It doesn’t make me less of a fan, though! See, we have to stop listening to random losers on the internet, my dudes. LMAOOOO 

Now, other than that, I actually had a lot of fun with this game! I played as Chris again because I loved his character, but I didn’t realize it was probably a bad decision to make. Dude, I was four hours into my gameplay before I learned Jill had more inventory space and she had certain abilities Chris didn’t. I knew I fucked up, but I’m not the type to just restart a game. I figured I might as well go along with it lol. So, I essentially took the hard way out; I don’t regret it, though. I had a lot of fun! Anyways, thanks for reading! 

- CD ★

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I wanted to show you guys two things: The results I got from my playthrough and a video of someone talking about the Resident Evil safe rooms lol. I really liked the deep dive and wanted to show it here. I hope you guys enjoy yourselves! 
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Sunday, July 5, 2026

It Feels Good to Be Black: A Reflection

 
This video is heavily related to today's post. It's very motivational, so I hope you guys like it. :)))

    I often think about a Malcolm X speech where he says, “Who taught you to hate the texture of your hair? Who taught you to hate the color of your skin?” I think about it way more than I should, not because I despise it, but because it means so much to me. I can’t speak for anybody, but I can speak for myself; I had to learn to love myself in the mirror. I grew up forced to get relaxers in my hair, never even knowing my natural texture until I turned 16…I might open that can of worms another day. I also grew up around a lot of people who had internalized racism and never unlearned it; I had to distance myself from people like that. 

When I started my loc journey, I learned to love myself fully. I was forced to look at my hair and my features, realizing two things: One, I couldn’t hide how I looked anymore, and two, I couldn’t change what I was looking at. My hair had been hidden - or altered - for the majority of my life. So, to finally look at me was something I didn’t know I needed. It took a long time, but I slowly started learning to love every part of me. Not to mention, there were online communities I joined, where I saw and connected with other Black people who were confident in themselves. That’s another thing I wanted to talk about; there’s a certain - and unspoken - level of community that’s tied into being Black. That’s when I realized something: to be Black is to be loved. To be Black is to love yourself regardless of what other people tell you and regardless of who tries to make you hate what you see every day. 

Honestly, that’s what keeps bringing me back to this lecture. I think it’s something a lot of us need to hear. Actually, I wish I heard this when I was a little girl. However, as messed up as it was, I’m glad my journey happened when it did; I still learned to love regardless. I love my curls. I love my skin. I love all of my features. I love being Black in general. I love the things we create. I love the way we uplift each other. I love how beautiful we are. I don’t know about y’all, but seeing people love themselves makes me want to love myself also. To be Black is to be everything…and I wouldn’t have it any other way. 
- P.S. PLEASE watch the Malcolm X movie from 1992! It’s a nice watch lol.

- CD ★

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While writing this entry, I was reminded of Fred Hampton when he was talking about race and solidarity. I felt the themes were similar to what I was talking about, so I included the video. I hope you guys like this too. Thanks for reading! (o´▽`o)

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

July Announcements: Album & Film of the Month, Blog & YouTube Updates, & More

This video is somewhat related to today's post. This is mostly for people who want to see a deep dive into album production and want to learn the nerdier side of music. I hope you guys like it! :)))

    Hey everyone, I hope you guys are doing good! I've really been getting to work lately, and I wanted to share some announcements I have for this month. 
  1. For the album of the month, I decided to go with Voodoo by D'Angelo (2000). Now...let's be honest, y'all...y'all knew deep down this was going to be the album of the month LMAOOOOO. When it became the first album I reviewed, I knew I was doomed. Okay, seriously though, I loved this album so much when I first heard it. I literally went out of my way to NOT listen to anything else until I made this album of the month. No bullshit, I love this album so much, and I am beyond happy to showcase it. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I did. 
  2. Now, for the film of the month, I wanted to do BOBO BLUES by Myracle. Honestly, I saw the film a while ago and also saved it for the right time. After looking at the themes in the Voodoo album, I thought picking this project would be perfect. I think I said this before, but I like to craft a theme for every month. I hope I'm doing well lol. 
  3.  The next thing I wanted to talk about was my YouTube content. I know I'm not as consistent on there, but I want to get better at that. I know it's been a while since I uploaded a podcast episode OR a gameplay video...and I want to change that. Don't ask me how, because I don't know yet, but just know it'll get done. I'm thinking I may have to change my content up a bit; maybe throwing a different game in there or finding a topic for the podcast at least once a month. I'll figure it out, but my point is, if you're subscribed to my YouTube channel, expect a few small changes. 
  4. My last announcement relates to the content on this blog. I think I'm EATINGGGGG with my articles right now. I literally just put out an essay about Resident Evil 5, and I spent weeks working on it. It was the first time I felt nerdy when writing about something; I loved it. I want to do more things like that. Actually, I won't give away what it is, but I want to work on writing a certain anime. However, if I want to write about it, it'll require me to rewatch the anime...and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. I'll get back to y'all on that another time! 
    Anyway, that's all for the announcements! I hope you guys enjoy yourselves, and I'll talk to you guys soon!  
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Monday, June 29, 2026

The Good & Bad of Resident Evil 5: A Retrospective

 
Obviously, this video is heavily related to today's post lol. This is for the people who just want to see the gameplay without commentary. Hope you guys like it! :)))
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    Before I start, I just wanted to say I’ve always been a fan of Resident Evil. Growing up, my dad bought a lot of the games: Resident Evil 0, Resident Evil 2, Resident Evil 2 Revelations, Resident Evil 5, and Resident Evil 7. I vividly remember being at his house and just playing around with that dramatic ass bass booming on the TV when I was getting chased. Then, as I got older, I kept buying the Resident Evil games. I bought Resident Evil 3 and Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City…see, barely anybody talks about that game; it was actually fire, but I’m drifting from the point, my bad. Even though I have the games, I’ve never actually completed any of them. They either got too difficult for me or a level made me chicken out. Either way, it never got done. I usually watched gameplays until recently. 

    I started playing Resident Evil 5 with my brother a few weeks ago. I made him play Sheva since I wanted to play Chris. A few years ago, I tried to play Resident Evil 5 by myself, but there was a certain level that made me chicken out, so I stopped playing. My brother and I were talking, and I don’t know how it came up in the conversation, but I convinced him to play co-op with me…and then we actually managed to complete the game. It was actually fucking crazy. I almost chickened out a few times, but it was hard to ditch the game when I saw how much my brother was enjoying it. So, naturally, I think I started having fun too. 

    Looking back, I also realized Resident Evil 5 wasn’t as scary as I remembered. A few of the bosses creeped me out, but I wasn’t alone, which made it better. Not to mention, I just love the game itself. I loved the story and all of the bosses, as creepy as they were. Additionally, I think Chris and Sheva are cool as shit. However, as much as I like the game, I perfectly understand why it gets backlash. To be completely honest, I don’t like the way Resident Evil 5 portrays Black people. At all. I actually think it’s tone deaf, and I don’t give a fuck when the game was made. It’s not the setting that makes me upset. There’s nothing wrong with making a game that takes place (anywhere) in Africa; it’s whether or not the culture is respected, and I think it falls flat. Portraying African people in this savage-like state when they’re infected, it rubs me the wrong way. Before any of you say anything, it’s actually confirmed that the Las Plagas parasite made the villagers revert to their ancestral practices. Now, I understand why other Black gamers aren’t offended. I understand both sides, but if people are expressing their discomfort over things like that, you can’t just dismiss it. People are uncomfortable for a reason. Also, before any of you come to me to talk about Resident Evil 4 or Resident Evil 6, I’m not here to talk about those games, as I cannot speak for the communities portrayed. I can only speak as a Black gamer, and other people of color should be allowed to express their discomfort if they have any. 

The following picture shows a journal entry from the game that proves my statements. 

    Anyway, this is why I think Capcom should fix a few things when - not if - they remake Resident Evil 5. One of the main things they should have is captions and translations for what the villagers are saying throughout the game. As you play the game, you can hear locals speaking in another language, which isn’t the problem. The problem is the player having a lack of understanding, which can often lead to a lack of respect. Because you are displaying a culture that isn’t often visible in the media, the very least you are responsible for is presenting things as respectfully as possible. Showing little things like that, it gives people an insight into the community and lets the player have curiosity. It gives them room to ask shit like…
  • “What language are they speaking?” 
  • “Which country in Africa is this based on?” 
You know, shit like that! I also want the game to humanize the people a bit more, and before y’all say anything, Resident Evil is actually good at humanizing background characters. I could easily remind you guys of the journal pages you can read in any of the games, reading about people slowly becoming undead and losing hope for the world around them. We both know there are several examples of shit like this. I also propose this idea because there are people who genuinely think the background characters are speaking gibberish, and I read that they’re actually speaking Swahili. Again, uneducated people often disrespect or dismiss what they don’t understand, whether it’s intentional or not. So, to prevent those talking points, captions and translations are needed…and honestly, that was my only critique. Of course, there’s bugs and shit, but the game is old as hell. Also, I’m not the type to talk about the technical parts of the game anyway.

    Criticism aside, Resident Evil 5 is not a bad game. Actually, I want to go even further and say it’s one of the more fun Resident Evil games. I meant it when I said it felt like an arcade story game. It’s one of the shorter ones, too, so it’s a bit easier to play; plus, I can see myself replaying it a few years from now. It’s a good time regardless of how you play it (by yourself or with a friend). I also want to say that beating Resident Evil 5 gave me the confidence to try and beat other games in the franchise. Right now, I’m playing the first Resident Evil. The fixed camera angles threw me off a bit, but it was easy for me to get used to them. I found a bundle of it and Resident Evil 0 on sale, so it was just good timing. Speaking of which, I also want to play the Revelations games and finish them. As I said before, I was already a fan, but beating Resident Evil 5 made me fall in love with the franchise. I’m happy to be a fan, and I’m happy I got to gush about it. Thanks for listening!
- P.S. Stay the absolute FUCK away from the fandom! If you’ve ever interacted with it, you know exactly why. LMAOOOO

- CD ★

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I wanted to show you guys the screenshots I took of the figurines in Resident Evil 5. I think I would be a good-ass photographer LMAO. Hope you guys like them, and thanks for reading! 
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Tuesday, June 23, 2026

Chapter 2: Customizing & Tailoring

 
Poster was made on Canva! 
(None of these photos are mine)

    For a while, I was thinking of what I wanted chapter two to be about. At first, I wanted to write about baggy clothes and how comfort can definitely elevate style…and honestly, we can still talk about that. I might do that for the next chapter since it’s still in the drafts, but as I was writing that, I was experimenting with something else. For a long time, I wanted to try upcycling/tailoring my shirts. When I was 18, I bought a stiff shirt from the thrift store; it was teal and had a little cat design on it. I tried cutting the shirt without a tutorial (I wanted something off the shoulder); it turned out terrible, and I didn’t try it again. Then, fast-forward to me at 20, and I came across a few videos of people cutting their shirts. I saw how nice the fashion girls looked, and at THAT point, I decided to try again. I cut a more stretchy shirt; I had better resources, and guess what? My shit came out FABULOUS lmao. So, when I got good results, I just kept doing it and cutting more shirts. Mannnn, when I tell you my shirts came out so cute, I felt cute too. Which is saying a lot because I never felt that cute in my life, but I’m rambling a lot right now. Look, the point is you don’t always have to spend money on new clothes; sometimes you can just look in your closet. 

Also, you’d be amazed by how many tutorials are online for anything fashion-related. I saw videos of people making shit off the shoulder, putting pictures and logos on shirts; I even saw a video of someone making capris by just cutting a pair of skinny jeans. From spying on the fashion and alternative sides of the internet, I learned a lot of people are just tailoring their clothes. Most of the clothes you see people wear? They’re cute, and they probably weren’t expensive. This is why I get sad when people say they don’t have enough money for their style. Not everyone starts off super stylish. A lot of people you see on the internet have experimented and practiced until they found what they liked. So try giving yourself that same grace! 

Another thing I wanted to talk about is customizing your character lol. Okay, hear me out; you know how you can make your own character in (some) video games? In my opinion, that is exactly how we should treat ourselves. Everything about us is customizable. You want to change how long or short your hair is? You can do it. You want to get some dope ass piercings? Well, you can. You want to try a new makeup look? You definitely can. You want to do some funky shit with your eyebrows? Go do that shit. And some of y’all think doing little things like that doesn’t make a difference, but it does. Making subtle changes to your “character” not only makes you stand out, but it gives you the chance to experiment and figure out what you like. Additionally, I don’t think we use our free will enough. Like me, for example; randomly throughout the year, I’ll remember I like to cut my eyebrows, so I’ll do eyebrow slits sometimes. I think some people are just scared to fuck around and find out. It’s our bodies, and we should feel comfortable enough to change our appearances as we see fit…but that’s just me, though! LMAO 

Now, the last thing I wanted to talk about is something I want to try: designing my own clothes. When I was looking at people cutting up their clothes, I came across videos of people bleaching and painting their clothes too, and that’s one of the things I can see myself trying. Now, I can’t lie…I get a little nervous about bleaching anything. I don’t know, bleach is such a powerful ass chemical. I just get anxious…so I might try painting first! Dude, I see people on Pinterest do these cool paintings on their jeans; I just HAVE to do something like that, and when I do it, I’ll get back to y’all!

Anyway, I think I made this entry to tell y’all to experiment a little bit. The most stylish people you know probably took the time to find themselves out, and I think we should do the same. Since my last journal entry about watches, I’ve been fucking around and finding out. I’ve been tailoring all of my old shirts in my closet, and it’s encouraged me to accessorize more. I feel nice about it too. You know how people say when you look good, you feel good? It’s kind of like that. Anyway, I’m done rambling for the day. Thanks for reading! I’m going to go tweak some more clothes now! 

- CD ★

Thursday, June 18, 2026

I think I like disturbing the peace actually...

 
Yes, this is the song I thought of when writing this lol
Also, for legal reasons, this article is a joke. :')

    This might sound insane coming from an introvert, but I like to be disruptive as hell. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going around causing hell on purpose…but when I’m in my car? Everyone is hearing my shit. I love to blast music in my car, and before y’all hop on me, I was already hard of hearing YEARS before I started driving. I’ve already accepted that it’ll get worse; I might as well enjoy myself. I play all kinds of shit too: hip-hop, R&B, nu-metal, and I recently started blasting pop. In my opinion, it’s a fun thing to do as long as you’re not doing it every day. 

Not to mention, disturbing the peace has weirdly benefitted me? Don’t worry, I’ll explain myself. I get different reactions depending on what genre I blast. Dude, I was blasting Full Nelson by Limp Bizkit one time, and I was yelling the lyrics, right? I’m driving, and I look to my right, and there’s this white dude in a truck jamming with me. I was laughing hard as hell when I realized. That wasn’t even the first time that’s happened to me. Literally a whole year before, I was blasting a Doechii song in my car, and this kid was looking at me and dancing with his dad. Now obviously, I don’t always get the best reactions when I blast music. Some people look at me like I disgust them; some people laugh; shit, I had a cop look me dead in my face when I was blasting DJ Quik. I love it because I’m living. It’s one of those little - and dumbass - things that remind me I’m alive. I know it pisses some people off, but I genuinely do not care. I’m not disturbing neighborhoods at midnight, so shut the fuck up. Most of the people that you drive by, you rarely see them twice. As a matter of fact, I need more people to stop giving a fuck. Obviously, still be considerate when needed, but stop being scared of what people think of you. Just start disturbing shit. LMAO

- CD ★

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

Maybe I daydream too much: a journal entry (4)

 
This song is kind of related to the post? I was listening to this song when I was making this journal entry. Hope you guys like it. :)))

    I gotta be honest, ever since I started my blog, it seems like I've unlocked something in myself. I think I know why too; this is the first time I've given myself space. I gave myself a chance to see what I wanted to do, how I see myself outside of what people want from me. I know I said this before, but I was a traditional and digital artist before I started all of this shit. Don't get me wrong, I was decent with it. I was good at replicating, drawing what I saw, but I wasn't actually making anything I liked. When I started writing and putting my feelings into words, it felt like I learned something new about myself. Actually, it feels like I'm reintroducing the idea of who and what I am. As much as I reflect, this is why I say I don't regret anything that's led me up to here. Doing all this shit made me realize how many ideas I actually had and just never went through with any of them. Before I was blogging, I daydreamed so many things I could do as an artist. I can't even describe them all, but I would just sit with the idea in my mind, and it never left my head. I think by giving myself the space to do what I want, it makes me more confident and eager...? Every idea I have, I can throw it out confidently now. Do I still question myself? Yes, but it's nothing like before. The best way I can describe my artistry is hunger. I want more; I always have. I knew since I was little that I wanted to do more and I wanted more out of my life. I was never comfortable with doing just one thing. I genuinely want to do everything. Ever since I let myself be, I have so many ideas come to my head; eventually, I'm going to get to a point where I can't ignore them anymore. I'm sick of letting things sit in my head...and I'm fucking hungry. I want to get better at what I do. I want to be acknowledged. I want to be heard; and with all the ideas in my head, I know something is going to stick. Maybe that's too confident, but I don't think I care anymore. It's not like I have anything else to do LMAO.  

- CD ★

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

I'm meant to be something: a journal entry (3)

This is unrelated to the post lol. I just really love this song. Shout out to my friend for introducing me to it! :)))

    For those who don’t know, I reflect on a lot of things. Ever since I got out of school, I haven’t done anything but reflect. I keep rewinding my life, thinking of everything that has brought me to the point I’m at right now. I always think of the things I should’ve done, could’ve been, and so on. No matter how much I reflect and look back, I can’t deny that everything - both good and bad - has led me up to here. Considering I reflect a lot, that applies to my artistry as well. 

    I look at everything I create with overly critical eyes. Up until a certain point, I felt like everything had to be perfect. I realize that growing up, I’ve always been placed inside a box. As much as I love my parents, I can’t deny how dismissive they were when it came to me having certain ideas or wanting to do my own things. Any time I did something that didn’t fit this mold, it felt like I wasn’t worth listening to. As an adult, I don’t remember the exact moment, but I eventually gave myself space to figure myself out. I had to see what I wanted outside of other people’s expectations, and I found out I like creating. I love the idea of making something I can be proud of. I hate to bring the mood down, but I wasn’t fully proud of myself before. I didn’t feel like I had a lot going on in my life; a part of me still thinks that, but I believe I was put on this Earth to create. I don’t know; it’s the only thing I get actual enjoyment from. It doesn’t even matter what I’m making anymore. And ever since I realized my art doesn’t have to be perfect, I’ve been more comfortable with the idea of making it. It feels nice to let go of expectations and just live. Everything else, I can figure out later. 

- CD ★

Saturday, June 6, 2026

Invader Zim Was a Sci-Fi Horror: A Quick Discussion

 
Let me make this clear: I love Invader Zim. None of what I'm about to say is me hating on the show lol.

    So, I’ve been doing this thing where I'm watching all the movies and shows I didn’t watch as a kid. I started watching Regular Show a while back; I found three Scooby Doo movies on sale for $5, and I found the Clueless movie for the same price. It’s not that I wasn’t allowed to watch any of those things; I just had a huge obsession with Dora the Explorer and Sonic the Hedgehog; I didn’t focus on anything else LMAO. Needless to say, I’ve been on a childhood movie and TV show run, and another show I started watching was Invader Zim (2001). I was at a family member’s house, and he had a Paramount+ subscription. I just got nosy and found the show by accident. It’s basically a show about an alien accidentally finding Earth and deciding to take over the planet for his alien government back at home; it’s a nice premise. I saw a few clips of the show online and found it funny, so I gave it a shot yesterday. Now tell me why…I thought Invader Zim was lowkey scary (at least in season one). 

No, seriously, bro! I was watching this shit, and it was funny, but it also had moments where it could’ve passed as a horror TV show. Literally was watching an episode where Zim had to go to the school’s nurse…for some reason, and Dib, his nemesis, was like, “You know the nurse is going to realize you don’t have any human organs.” I guess Zim got worried about that. So, what does he do? He starts STEALING ORGANS from everyone in school so he can appear more human. Like what?! Hello?! The fuck? Then, there’s an episode where Zim tries to make a friend so people didn’t find him suspicious, and he makes a friend named Keef, right? After a day or so, Zim decides he doesn’t want to be friends with the kid anymore, but Keef was in denial or something? Anyway, when Zim realizes Keef won’t leave him alone, he makes this master plan to TAKE KEEF’S EYES OUT, REPLACE THEM WITH NEW ONES, AND PROGRAM HIS MIND SO HE CAN MAKE A NEW FRIEND. I feel so crazy trying to explain this shit. Dude, I promise y’all it happened LMAO.

To be honest though, the absurdity actually makes me like the show. I love how stupid it is. I love Zim and Gir. I love how Zim makes it so obvious he’s an alien and people most likely know, and just don’t care (or they're just oblivious). It’s a funny show, and I see exactly why people love it. So y’all can consider me a fan after today. I can’t wait to finish the show, and I’ll talk to you guys later! 

- CD ★

Monday, June 1, 2026

June Announcements: Album & Film of the Month, Content Updates, & More

 
This video is unrelated to today's post! I just wanted to share a Thinkpiece Tribe video; I love their content lol. 

    First of all, I want to start off by saying HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! I encourage you all to be safe this year if you plan on attending Pride parades and going out. As much as I want you guys to have fun, we also need to look out for each other, especially during times like these. May we all have the best time of our lives and celebrate ourselves lol! In the meantime, I have a few announcements relating to the blog! 
  1. For the album of the month, I'm happy to showcase Ego Death by The Internet (2015). Even though I intend to showcase LGBTQ+ artists throughout the year, I wanted to put an emphasis on queer art for the month of June. Gayness aside, there are so many good songs on this project, and I wanted to encourage others to listen to it. I love this album, along with the sounds that were composed for this project. 
  2.  Now for the Black Short Film of the month, I decided to go with Rainbow Girls by Nana Duffuor (2026)! I'll explain how I found the film in the BSF Monthly tab, but I genuinely love this film. It's a mixture of comedy and adventure that involves people in the LGBTQ+ community, and it's a very nice watch. I will say the themes of both the album and film are not related to each other this month. Actually, there's no specific theme for this month; I just wanted to show off the projects that I enjoyed, and I hope you all enjoy them as well. :)) 
  3. I am happy to announce that I'm officially a gaming YouTuber! I mean...you guys already knew that, LMAO. I mean, I'm slowly becoming consistent. I noticed that I'm successfully able to do at least one video a month. Should I do more? Absolutely! CAN I do more? See...I don't know about that; I'll work on it though! I slowly want to build up a schedule for YouTube. Maybe two videos a month. Plus, I still want to work on my podcast. I don't know; I'll give more updates related to that another time. 
  4. I finally took the time to make a Ko-fi! I have made the decision not to have ads on my blog. Personally, I don't like the idea of big companies being advertised on my blog. Additionally, I feel the millisecond I start having ads on the blog will be the millisecond my project is no longer authentic. Considering CD THE NET ★ started as a passion project, I do not see myself wanting to profit from it. If anything, I wish to profit from other things (YouTube, donations from Ko-fi, TikTok, etc.). If - for whatever reason - I change my mind and want ads on my blog, I will let all of you know. In the meantime, I would like to say that any donations given to my Ko-fi will be deeply appreciated. Also, obviously, you do not have to donate to my Ko-fi. You guys reading my blog and staying up to date is enough. Regardless, I appreciate all of the support I've gotten from this project, whether it's monetized or not! 
  5. I'll probably be less active on the blog for two separate reasons: One, I want to take the time to come up with some more ideas. Two, I want to put more effort into my other projects. I have not made any posts on my TikTok in a long time and want to bring more eyes to the blog. So, a little time will be taken off for that. Thank you for understanding. 
    Okay, that was all of the announcements for this month! I hope you all enjoy the projects I picked, and I will talk to you guys later!  (* ^ ω ^)

Friday, May 22, 2026

I'm Every N*gga: a journal entry (2)

 
Not gonna lie...this video is completely unrelated to the post. I just liked it and wanted to share it today. I hope you guys enjoy it! :))

    You know, ever since I became an adult, I’ve realized a good chunk of adulthood is self-discovery. A lot of us are still learning who we are, what our style is, what we like, etc. What I’m learning now is that there is no end to self-discovery. Actually, I think as we grow, we keep changing and learning new things about ourselves. Hell, there’s probably people in their 40s and 50s, still learning new things about themselves. Anyway, I’m writing this because I realized my style has changed a bit. I’ve been thinking about my fashion sense, and it’s still streetwear (for the most part), but I’m finding myself gravitating towards more feminine styles. 

At first, I felt kinda bad? Guilty maybe…because I thought I finally found my thing, like how Aliyah’s Interlude has ‘Aliyahcore.’ Y’all know what I mean? I kinda realized I’m not supposed to have everything together at 20. Also, I don’t have to stick to a specific style either. If I want to put on streetwear, I can. If I want to put on some earthy shit, I can. If I want to have a masculine, feminine, or androgynous style, I can. The last thing I want to do is place these weird-ass rules on myself. I’ve done that before, and it’s done nothing but hold me back. So, I’m just going to start doing shit for the sake of doing it. I don’t care anymore. 

- CD ★

Sunday, May 17, 2026

Give Artists Their Flowers While They Still Have a Garden: A Commentary on D'Angelo (mostly)

 
This video is heavily related to today's discussion. It's a nice watch, and I hope you guys enjoy it! :))
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    I recently listened to the album Voodoo by D’Angelo, and to be honest, I fell in love with the album. I admired his vocals and his music composition, as it was something I’ve never heard before. The album was so alluring and new, I couldn’t help but appreciate it. Even though D’Angelo only has three albums, you can hear a clear evolution in his work. You can hear how his art progressively got louder, more confident, and more prideful. Listening to his albums in chronological order is heavily rewarding, to say the least. Now, I don’t know about y’all, but every time I consume something I like, I go out of my way to learn as much as I can about it. This goes for video games, TV shows, movies, and most recently, albums. After listening to his first album, Brown Sugar, I watched a small video essay about D’Angelo’s life and influences. Overall, that video made me appreciate his art more. Actually, I wish I could give D’Angelo his flowers…but he’s no longer alive, and honestly, that’s the problem. 

As people, I notice a lot of us do not give artists the recognition they deserve until they are no longer here. Not saying this is the case for D’Angelo, but it is definitely the case for Aaliyah. Like D’Angelo, Aaliyah released three albums before passing away. You could also hear her evolution and growth in her art, even though she didn’t have a lot of projects. Aaliyah was already famous prior to her death, but when she passed, her fame skyrocketed. She is not the first artist this has happened to, nor will she be the last. For a lot of people, it seems like death gives their fame a boost. Don’t get me wrong, this alone is not an issue. People talking about artists after they die is a weird - but effective - way to keep their legacy alive. Teaching others about the impact these artists had on our culture? It memorializes them. It’s the reason people still find out about some of these artists, even years after they passed. So, I see exactly why artists get more fame after passing. My thing is, why do some of us wait to give an artist their flowers when we can give them now, while they’re still here with us? 

Whether you want to admit it or not, there are some insanely talented people out in the world. There are artists with insane vocals, incredibly skilled wordplay, and there are people who can compose the fuck out of a song. However, they are likely to receive the most recognition when they are no longer here to create. That is something I want to change. Also, don’t mistake this as me blaming others, because I am not. I wasn’t even alive when Aaliyah released her music; I was born in 2006. Additionally, I had just launched my blog around the same time D’Angelo passed. I was not around to appreciate Aaliyah and D’Angelo’s artistry like I should’ve, but I’m here now. You are here now. What I’m trying to say is there are artists - people - out there who deserve more recognition; let’s not wait to give it to them. Support those you can while you still can. In my opinion, someone shouldn’t have to die to know they are appreciated, loved, and cared for. You find someone cool as shit? Let the whole world know. Listen to all of their projects. Support them; whether that means going to a performance or just streaming their work (and of course, this doesn’t apply to just artists). There’s more than one way to do it. I truly wish I had listened to D’Angelo’s projects earlier, but I know I can’t reverse time. Actually, I think we all know someone - both famous and personal - whom we wish we had supported them sooner or found out about them earlier in our lives. I feel in order to prevent things like that, we have to give people their flowers while they still have a garden. Thank you. 

- CD ★

Actually, I’ll share an artist I think deserves more recognition; his name is Jakob (formerly Jakob Ogawa). He makes this indie bedroom and pop type of music, and I love it. Personally, I hope he actually makes an album. My life would literally be complete/hj. Anyway, these are my favorite tracks from him: 

Okay, that was it. Thanks for listening! <3